Sunday, May 22, 2011

Find a Way to Smile and Never Let it Get Away

Ahh I just need my exams to be over and done with.  I am getting really nervous about taking them because no matter how hard I try to focus on getting some decent studies in, I find my mind wandering elsewhere and I can't get back on track.

I had a conversation with a friend the other night and we were talking about prayer and decisions.  He was telling me about a situation where he weighed his options with the knowledge of what he should do at the time, decided what he was going to do, prayed about it, and got his answer.  A couple days later, he had an experience that showed him another option that he could choose.  So once again, he contemplated the knowledge of what he had gained, made a decision, took it to the Lord, and got a different answer than previously received.  I said something about that being confusing that he got one answer, and then got a completely different answer a couple days later.  He said something that was interesting to me:
   He said that at the time, he was doing his best with the knowledge that he had; And with his options that were available to him then, this particular decision was the best for him and the Lord gave confirmation of that. But as the days went on, he had gained more insight, or more knowledge, giving him a different option that he hadn't thought of. So now this new option was best for him. 
I don't think I explained that very well... he explained it alot better.  But I think what he had to say was exactly what I needed to hear.  I couldn't contribute to the conversation as much as I would have liked to, and I guess it was because of my pride and confusion in my own situations.

I'm in the process of trying to organize all my options for the future, study my scriptures, gain knowledge from my patriarchal blessing, pray, decide, and take it to the Lord for confirmation. 
It's a hard process when I know I'm being stuborn and wishing for things that I had previously gotten confirmation about.  But situations change, new options arise, more knowledge is gained.

I have had a really up-and-down sort of day week. I just need to remember that there is SO much to be happy about in life.  I don't know why I ever let things get me down.  I'm not gunna lie, I had a pretty rough time the other day and it felt like the end of the world. I was positive I wasn't going to get through the day... but ya know what, I did.  Those 24 hours passed and I'm just fine.  In fact, I had a wonderful time the next day and I smiled and I laughed and it felt so good!
Here are some things I have to smile about:
  • The Sun!

  • My Family!!
  • My Puppies, Hunny and Hank
  • New and old friends
  • My Savior, Jesus Christ
  • Arizona (Flight is booked! I'll see ya in 15 days!!)
  • yellow nail polish & zebras

  • independence
  • perfume
  •  The Holy Ghost
  • slurpees
  • Prophets, like Joseph Smith, Gordon B. Hinckley & Thomas S. Monson

  • shoes
  • My future
  • Sundays
  • Justin Bieber
  • Surprises
  • Fruit Smoothies
Find a Way to Smile and Never Let it Get Away!
Happy Sunday Everyone! Love Ya'll!

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

A Little Bit Stronger

This is a pretty good  indication of how I'm feelin these days.  Sometimes I wonder if I did the right thing by moving out to Saskatchewan; Or if it was a spontaneous decision made by a naive girl.  I'm aware that I do things "spur-the-moment" sometimes.... but didn't I put alot of thought and prayer into this decision? Didn't I get that "go ahead" sort of feeling?  I know I got my confirmation.  Now, why am I questioning my decision? And why didn't things turn out how I was sure they were going to?
Sooo many questions... sooo much unsurity

Anyways... I actually am doing really good here though.  Studying is going good. Slow... but good.  I had my first exam on Monday. I think I did good... I felt really good about it.  FHE was pretty fun! We had a bonfire, roasted hotdogs & mallows and I played some football with the guys. I also emailed the Calgary PIMT to inquire about a transfer for next year... so we'll see what they say!

I had a ton of realtors come over to my house yesterday morning to check the place out.  I knew they were coming, but accidently slept in.  The doorbell was rang, and all of a sudden I heard a stampede of feet piling into my house.  I staggered out of bed, threw on a sweater and ran upstairs.  There were probably 20 realtors standing in my front entry way with more on their way in.  I blinked my bleary eyes at them.
Realtor- "Oh, were you sleeping? Did we wake you?"
Me- "Ohhh noo.. I was just waiting for you guys to get here"
Realtor- "..."
Me- "Ok fine! you caught me..."
Realtor- "haha. You can go back to your room then. We'll lock up when we're done"
Me- slumps back to my room, still half asleep

Oops... my bad. After they left, the realtor guy texted me and told me of all these appointments they had made and that they would prefer if I wasn't in the house.... soo I got kicked out of my house from noon-7pm.  I was at the school for 7 stinkin hours, yet I don't feel like I made any progress! But since I was so dilligent in my studies, I treated myself to some new nailpolish colors and $5 sale movies!  Can't go wrong with Hot Chicks (with Rob Schnieder) & bright yellow nail polish!! Every time I look at my happy yellow nails, Im in an instagood mood =)
Go paint your nails yellow and have a happy wednesday everyone!!

Sunday, May 15, 2011

I'm a Belieber

Ah man, I can't believe how fast this school year has gone by! (Although sometimes it has felt painfully slow.) I have my first final exam tomorrow.  I'm kinda freakin out... I have my Massage Theory exam tomorrow, then a week off, and BAM! 5 exams in a row! seriously... who makes the schedule?? Tuesday is Pathology, Wednesday Musculoskeletal Anatomy, Thursday Systems Anatomy & Massage Oral Practical, & Friday is my final Physiology exam. Then I'm AB bound! I can't wait!!

So I actually had a really good weekend! I was having a really rough week... nothing was going how I wanted it to and I was feeling really lonely in my big empty house.  I may or may not have had a little break down and almost came home.  I was dying of boredom studying all day on Friday and then my friend Steven showed up on my doorstep and surprised me with a weekend visit!! It was so great!! Just what I needed! We went out to Denny's and had breakfast at 12:30 am, then went out for lunch on Saturday afternoon, he helped me study, we played soccer , I got flowers from my landlord =) and then we went to our Justin Beiber party!! (Highlight of my weekend!!)

We had a BeiberQ (BBQ) while listening to his CD's and dancing (k, so maybe I was the only one dancing) and THEN for the main event we got to watch Justin Beiber Never Say Never! I'm not gunna lie, I had a giddy girlish grin on my face for the entire 105 minutes of it!!
Eat your heart out ladies

And then church was just great today. It always is! Anyways... back to the books! I got to study extra diligently today since I had a case of the Beiber Fever last night and couldn't study

Happy Sunday everyone!! <3 Ya'll!

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Lazy Day

I just got a massage.  This is how I feel now:
Side note: When I first heard this song, I was driving in my car and when he sang the part "Meet a really nice girl, have some really nice sex.  And she's gunna scream out, 'This is great'" "omg this is great" (in a complete monotone sarcastic voice) I laaaaaughed and laughed so hard for like 10 minutes...  by myself... apparently I thought it was funny... and still do. I still snicker every time I hear it  =)

Monday, May 9, 2011

I just need to take a minute to brag about one of my accomplishments =)

When I first started school in September, I learned that everyone in my class had to get 100 massage credits for the year.  I was so worried that I wasn't going to be able to make my quota because I just moved here and literally the only person I knew was Chance. I felt like everyone else in my class had an advantage because they were all either from Saskatchewan with family in the area or they had friends out here who were going to come support them and help them get their credits.

Well guess what... I got my 100 credits as of Friday! I was the first one in my class to get all of my credits! I think alot of the people in my class still have about 30-40 credits to get.  I was surprised every month to find out that I was on top in my massage credits! I honestly just got so lucky in having all of the most amazing, supportive, dedicated clients!! I am so grateful for all the wonderful people I have met this past year and who I have gotten to know throughout the weeks as they came back to get massages from me.  I seriously love being a (soon-to-be) massage therapist! Ask Chance, I came home every night with a big (tired) smile on my face saying "I LOVE BEING A MASSAGE THERAPIST! Everyone I meet is so amazing and so great!" I always came home feeling confident and feel that I'm actually good at something!

This one time, I had a client come in and when I saw him my jaw dropped! He was this jacked 60 year old with tattoos everywhere! He looked like he was part of the Hells Angels! Needless to say I was Terrified!! I was still pretty fresh and unsure about the whole massage thing (We just kinda got "thrown" into clinic.  Sink or swim right?) and I thought he was going to break me like a twig if he didn't like the massage!  After a about 10 minutes into the massage, he made some sort of comment about alcohol and asked me if I drank or something, where I replied "No I don't drink.  I have never drank before" And he was all, "You must be a Mormon" .... how could ya tell? hah... Then he went on to tell me how he was taking discussions from the senior missionaries, the Robinsons.  The same missionaries that I was taking Temple Prep from at the time! I got pretty excited and started asking him all these questions and talking to him about the church.  Before ya know it I was bearing my testimony to him... as I was massaging his glutes. Yes, his bare bum cheek. Ahh I am so ridiculous! I wasn't even thinking how awkward of a situation that was until afterwards!!
But anyways... this guy actually turned out to be completely different than what I perceived of him when I first saw him! He was really funny and very personable.  He ended up becoming one of my regulars, and every week I would "check up on him" and one week I even challenged him to only smoke half a pack of cigarettes a day rather than his usual full pack a day! (I'm pretty sure that was extremely unprofessional of me to do at school during clinic hours!... Meh!) I never did find out how he did with my challenge cause he had to go in for surgery before I could massage him again! But I will always remember the guy who I bore my testimony to while massage his gluteus. haha

I have also had:
  • someone ask me if he could come over to my house instead of to the school and he would just pay me instead.... just after he told me that he thought I was cute.  I'm flattered, but that's unprofessional on so many levels
  • someone tell me they have been to alot of massage therapists in their life and that I am just as good if not better than most of the people she has gone to.... =D
  • men come and tell me they like "deep DEEP tissue massages" and that I "won't hurt them"... It's always my personal goal to make them squeal by the end of the massage... and I always succeed ;)
  • someone repeat their phone # to me the entire time I massaged them in hopes I would accept it. 
  • multiple confidence boosters from all sorts of people encouraging me in my pursuit of my career
  • a couple people tell me, "you know, for such a small girl, you are very strong!" (must be them 8 pounders I've been crankin at the gym!)
  • overheard a conversation of my Massage teacher singing my praises to one of my soon-to-be regulars =)
  • the most interesting conversations, heard some really awsome stories and have gotten to know some really amazing people!
  • alot of learning experiences
  • a couple people tell me I have a very soothing voice (haha) and that they would come back to me just for the conversation.
I love the people I meet, I love the stories I hear, I love hearing that I have made someone's day better.  All in all, I love being a Massage Therapist!