Near To You

My roommate showed me this song the other day because she said it reminded her of me.

He and I had something beautiful
But so dysfunctional, it couldn't last
I loved him so but I let him go
'Cause I knew he'd never love me back


Such pain as this
Shouldn't have to be experienced
I'm still reeling from the loss,
Still a little bit delirious


Near to you, I am healing
But it's taking so long
'Cause though he's gone
And you are wonderful
It's hard to move on
Yet, I'm better near to you.


You and I have something different
And I'm enjoying it cautiously
I'm battle scarred, I am working oh so hard
To get back to who I used to be


He's disappearing
Fading suddelly
I'm so close to being yours
Won't you stay with me
Please


Near to you, I am healing
But it's taking so long
'Cause though he's gone
And you are wonderful
It's hard to move on
Yet, I'm better near to you.


I only know that I am
Better where you are
I only know that I am
Better where you are
I only know that I belong
Where you are


Near to you, I am healing
But it's taking so long
Though he's gone
And you are wonderful
It's hard to move on


Near to you, I am healing
But it's taking so long
'Cause though he's gone
And you are wonderful
It's hard to move on
Yet, I'm better near to you.


Yet, I'm better near to you.


I found this song rang more truth to my situation than I had thought it would.  Part of me wants to write about it and pour out all my feelings from my heart... but at the same time, my experiences from the past 2 years are still somewhat tender subjects and my heart is still a little raw from it all.
Side note: Don't you all think having a public blog is so bitter sweet?? It's fun to post cute or funny little posts and see the responses people have to them! You're so proud that people are reading/commenting and you all check your stats like twice a day! (don't deny it... I'm sure you have all done it!) But sometimes you just want to pound out exactly how you are feeling without having to leave stuff out, or avoid using people's names because you don't know who might stumble across your blog, or you don't want people to know so much about your personal life. It makes a person vulnerable. So the more vague you are when writing, the less vulnerable you become. Right? K, cool... I'm glad we all agree. But isn't this a pretty sweet song? =)

Oh... are you feeling a little let down because I didn't expound upon my original point of this post?? .... Oops...